Jaide Spillhaus♥

today i woke up ; it was sunny , i was on time , checked my blog , new country to add to the list of views;  portugal :)
HIIIIIIII PORTUGUESE PERSON .
anyway , this morning my brother even gave me money .
so i was like yeah cool this is gonna be a good day.
but no it got ruined.
and not by ' HATERS' or annoying people . by the people i call my FRIENDS .yes you read that correct. my day got ruined by my friends. sometimes i think... do i even have any friends ? i talk and joke with alot of people, but when im out of highschool  i'm will only keep contact with  4 . maybe less.
are they even friends or just associates at this time in my life ?
i love my friends . obviously i would , i did CHOOSE them .but sometimes its the people that you love the most that can hurt you the most . you give them opportunity to push your buttons, and i gave them the' remote ' . so what should i really expect ?
anyway . i was angry with friends . went to a lesson . teacher put me in a worse mood..

then was meant to see a guy . but my friend wanted me to go with her , and yanno . chicks before dicks and all that . so i went with her told her EVERYTHING . why am i referring to her as her. her is JAIDE. she is the most amazing teenager  i know . she is going to be in my life forever. shes the one person i KNOW wil be at my wedding . everyone else  - BLAH maybe. she is a DEFINITE. we are so alike yet so different. we cant even remember how we met . we both just know we walked into eachothers life somehow and it went up from there. i dont know why ive made blogs for other people and not YOU. you mean the absolute most to me and id do anything for you ; ANYTHING . the way i have tears in my eyes whilst writing this ; never happened for anyone else. EVER . you never judge me and i love that about you . &  today you made me feel so much better ; i was gonna come home and probably have an attitude with parents . then it would escalate . but you actually calmed me down . just by listening . and you said the cutest thing today .
" deannne this is going to sound really corny but im always here for you and id do anything for you "
the feeling is definitely mutual .♥
we have had ups or downs . but our' arguments' have always been over silliness.
i would say DONT EVER CHANGE . but i know you wont and sometimes you may think im acting weird with you or being off with you . but im not . im probably being off with everyone .

BASICALLY.

i love you .