you dont know me ...

welll ive been making blogs for qutie a while , ive got in many arguements last yearrrr , on facebook alot , have a twittter, and sometimes just SOMETIMES i go outsideeeeee  and TALK to people :O 


but im a happy person .. haaha surprisingly. bur yeah this thing is bothering me .
& i just want to clear this up . 


YOU DONT KNOW ME. just because you read my blogs,talk to me etc doesnt determine anything. yeah you know my opinions on things and maybe a few of my problems. yeah you see pictures on facebook . but you do NOT know me. have you even realized that i havent had a blog dedicated to let my readers know who i am, what i like height age etc. this wanst meant to be an angry blog but people think they know me and they reallyREALLLY dont. 


walk the same path got on different shoes. live in the same building but we got different views. - Drake ♥


you could judge me on what you see , but i assure you that you dont know my deepest htoughts or who i REALLY am . dont believe the rumours, dont judge me. 
GET TA KNOOOOOOW-chav voice. if you ask - ill say .
obviously what i tell you WILL depend on who you are.
but i dont bite shesssssssh. 
haha im bare saying that like you WANT to know aaha .. why would you care about me ? i just provide your entertainment. 


but dont judge or be like ' yeah deannes this deannes that'
because reallly you have no CLUE.
like there was some rumor about me being racist and people just assumed that i was because they ' KNOW ' me .
SIT THE FUCK DOWN YOU STUPID UNEDUCATED FROWZY GOAT. 


my blogsfacebooktwittereven talking to me . is just the blurb and the cover of my story. none of you know what lays inside. like NONE of you. not even some of my family , because as opinionated and confident i am , i never share EVERYTHING im always holding back a bit .
so yeah.
YOU DANNTTT KNOW MEE DAHLIN.
DANT JUDGE
DATN ASSUME
JUST GAT TO KNOWWWWWWW INII.

im the one on the right :) yeeee with the scarf bravvvv

education&dont let opinions get to you

welll my title is quite obvious what this blog is going to be about.
well i was reading a blog i made the other day and i was thinking 'if your going to bunk , you might as well not come school AT ALL .'
so imma expand on that .


we are in a country where we are lucky to have free education , we HAVE to go school or we could be fined, and there are so many people over the world that have to pay and are having to get the money by horrible ways , PROSTITUTING , CHILD LABOR. just look how many times you see on children in need , red nose day etc all those children who WANT to go school , who have ambitions and goals. and you people have everything they want and your not even making the most of it . IDIOTS.


everyone knows when food is free it tastes nicer , when ANYTHING is free , it is more attractive. school - yeah i know its not attractive and theere is so much drama , but when it cuts down to it , your getting an education.. your strengthening your brain and learning new things. even in school , you learn life skills. E.G DONT SNITCH . hahaah but seriously you do learn life skills. e.g how to respect authority, dont get involved in things that dont concern you , never think you cant do something ETC.


but what i dont understand is if its FREE. why do theses idiots bunk ? you might aswell not come at all. your wasting the tax payers money and the teachers time. ive never bunked in my life . welll not properly. ive bunked half a lesson , then on the way BACK to my lesson we got caught. i was like YOU ARE NOT SERIOUS. we were just heading there. but i know a few people who bunk all day . or say they are going college on certain days but they dont go college OR school . WHY ? when something is GIVEN to me in my life , i take it , i make the most of it , because sooner or later its going to be gone. BELIEVE ME. education is a main factor in my life did you know you spend 18% of your life in school . thats nearly a fifth. and your going to waste it . WHAT IS THE POINT . 


i just hate those people who have no ambition , yeah you might always be told that you cant, but no matter what you do , people are going to have something negative to say. look at barrack obama , all the amazing things he is doing yet people still criticize. you just need to learn that ' opinions arent facts, take them in and let them go ' . okay you might not be able to take that seriously as its a line in a song. but its so true. even if a majority of people have the same opinion STILL doesnt make it a fact. its only a fact if you want it to be or you make it into one. NOTHING can get to me because im that self assured , yeah i know im not the skinniest girl ever but im not the fattest. not the uglies not the prettiest. i think im decent looking , actually not decent i think im beautiful . if you dont agree , then AYY'OKAY. everyone has different  opinions and everyone sees thing in different ways . but yeah as i was saying HAVE AMBITION. yeah life is fun if you dont know where your going , but o be honest people with ambition dont even know where there going. they know what sort of places they wanna stop at and what they wanna get done , but NO ONE knows what life has in store for them next.


basically STAY IN SCHOOL . DO YOUR BEST . BE HAPPY & DONT LET PEOPLES BULLSHIT OPINIONS GET TO YOU. there only OPINIONS.

great blog day- clarifying .

well this is like the first blog in 30 , that ive done that hasnt been sitting in my drafts . 


i would tell you about my day and although i was out alot , its not interesting . but my BLOG day . was amazing 
yesterday i got 61 views. i thought that was amazing as two weeks before till then i was getting 5-11. then BOOM 61. but today was one of my best blogging days.
today it got - 
wait for it
124 VIEWS. KABOOOOOOOOM.


74 of them was views was to the year seven &nine blog about growing up too fast. when i made it i wasnt thinking it would do this welll but obviously  i posted the link on facebook and most year nines clicked it. so i come in from friends house all i see is a wallpost. someone saying im in your blog i feel so special ' bla bla . then comments laughing about what they said. then im like i didnt even say your name DONT GET GASSED. which turns into an fb argument about how i shouldnt say certain things.ERMS ITS MY BLOG ABOUT MY THOUGHTS IM NOT GOING TO HAVE ANY BOUNDARIES. if you dont like what im going to say , then dont read it . simples. resist your temptation of clicking the link .


but wow 124 views. thanks .
but its funny how the samee people who didnt like that the blog was about their year are the same ones giving it more publicity . ahahah


anyway just want to clarify this
if i mention you in a blog with no name ..


good way : your cool
bad way : youve agitated me




if i mention you inn a blog with your name ...


good way : your AMAZING
bad way : i hate you.


SO PEOPLE STOP GETTING GASSED.
another thing- dont ask me to mention you or i wont , if something happens that is worth writing about , i will . 
DONT ASK . or ill be more resilient to do it. 

life is too short; year seven & nines.

i like my tittle :D


basically ive noticed that people are growing up too fast because they want to be older . erm whats so special about being older. NOTHING . now that i am 15 , i realize being older is overrated. i rememberer when i wanted to be 15 :) and when i thought 13 meant i was such a grown up . i really wasnt . LOL 
even in my year seven blog i mentioned that they are growing up too fast , and theyre are going to regret it . there like 11 -12 years old . you can get away with so much , yet they are trying to resemble yea 10 . with their handbags and weave. JUST NO . act your age , not your desired age because when that age really comes youll realize just how much time youve wasted aspiring to be that. 


anyway its not just year sevens , how could there be some argument in my school with some dumb year nine girls . and the girl walked over to the victim and had the AU-FUCKING-DACITY to say ' take her away please' BITCH . you wallked to her , so you walk away . when she said that i was like JHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHAZEEEEEEEE. you are NOT serious.  then this same chick was like HOLD ME BACK HOLD ME BACK . NO ONE . held her back but she didnt do shit . NOTHING . so dont try and prove a point or act like you can do shit because when it comes down to it . . you really cant. SO FUCKING DUMB AHHHHHHHHHHHHH.


year nines as a whole just annoy me , to be honest. all the boys in the ' popular ' group all want to be gangsters and sell weed so they can get fast money . one guy and his friend was like my kids arent gonna live how i lived bla bla theyll have gucci socks gucci bed sheets. now this guy all over facebook expressed how he is poor. if you want your children to have a good life , i dont think that would include a dad in prison . DICKHEAD. and your poor so obviously you dontt take money for granted. errm gucci socks ? REALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLY ? yeah everyone wants to be so rich that money isnt a issue , but wow there is boundaries on everything. ALSO if all you want to do when your older is sell drugs , why the FUCK are you at school wasting the tax payers money . GO GET HIGH AT HOME . dont waste teachers time and our money . DICKHEADS.
 - sorry about swearing . i havent been doing it as much recently but this just frustrates me , as you can tell :) 
ACT YOUR AGE, before its too late and all you want is to be that age again .

forever flopping friends

Have any of you out there got that friend that every time you ask to go out or to see them theres an excuse or if they do have the time when it comes to the moment something always comes up



^ haha that line doesnt sound like me , mainly because it wasnt . my brother was like DEANNE DEANNE heres a topic , then stole the keyboard started typing.
this has been in my drafts for ages and i just couldnt be bothered.


but NOW I AM :)


at the time it was so relevant , there was one friend . PERSON KNOWS WH O THEY ARE.
who had a boyfriend .
and wed make plans but 80% of the time they wouldnt happen . 15% they would happen but she has to leave early. and 5% they would happen how we planned. it was so annoying , she was annoying at the time. just always flopping. and it would always be the same excuses, seeing boyfriend or mum said no cause we have to go somewhere.
DONT LIE TO ME ....RAGE#
but seriously dont lie to me , unless you like the taste of my knuckles :) 


if you are a friend that is always flopping . FIXUP. its not cool at all . and it will get to the point where the person your always flopping on just doesnt want to meet up with you . EVER.


if your always being flopped on  ,  i feel your pain babe. it isnt nice . just pure rejection . especially if they flop ON THE DAY . and your all excited then KABOOOOOOOOOM. 
'sorry i cant come * input shit excuse *  '
and your just sat there like erm what am i supposed to do now ?


AHHHHH i cba to expand this anymore.
so basically 
THIS 
IS
IT
hahaa micheal jackson flex.
but yeah this is the end
FULLSTOP

school progress SPRING TERM :) - NOT COMEDY :)

okay well i do this every end of term or half term :) and im going to forget otherwise and i saw this  sat in my list of blog topics.


LAST TIME 

get in less arguments - CHECK ! 6/10
higher levels- Mmmm Ish 7/10
more sleep [ not in the lessons ]- WORKING ON IT 5/10
facebook less ; homework more. - GETTING BETTER 7/10
and basically be a good student ; and role model - fuck yeah :) 8/10

 .dont be getting in arguments ; BIG ones - 6/10 

BE ON TIME . NEW GOAL. im now on a 2/10


NOW :)

get in less arguments -! 9/10 

dont think i have got in any

higher levels-  8.5/10

well i get my scores back after the holidays so ill let you know but yeah the 8.5 is an estimate :) more sleep -  5/10

nothings changed , but at least i can still do well social networking less ; homework more. - GETTING BETTER 8/10

i surprised myself the other day and gave myself extra homework but now i have my blackberry , its hard to social network less.  willpower isn't my strong point. be a good student &role model -  10/10

because all the other things YEAHH BWOYYYYYYY

dont get in BIG arguments - 10/10 

NONE

BE ON TIME . - 7/10

BIG IMPROVEMENT :)

the only thing that was bad this term is that end of march to beginning of april it is 8 family members birthday . all live in the same area as me . so i didnt have ANY time to do that and french and other homework like maths english . so i didnt learn any of my test for it . refused to do the speaking AND writing . got an hour detention . now doing it after the holidays . i could have handled it differently , i was such a bitch to her .  but thats it.

because...

my parents evening was AMAZING , BLEEPING AMAZING if your comparing it to my parents evening last year haha . but seriously one teacher who ive had for both years said there has been an drastic change  , im like a new person . and one teacher even said i was PERFECT and that there was no complaints. YEAH BWOY. my mum even bought me a present hahaha .

but yeah overall . THIS TERM HAS BEEN GREAT. I HAVE FINALY SEEN THE LIGHT :) yes i have flaws but im human , and im working on them :) 

if you read all this - pure dedication#

if your not then you wouldnt see this HA :)

and if you skipped to the words in big , i dont blame you . this means much more to me than you :)

either way .

THANKYOU

make'up'

after doing the thing annoying me blog , i realized there is more than three things annoying me at  the moment .
one is MAKEUP :)


this is mainly to girls till the end
not makeup literally , but the extremes people take it too etc , all the other aspects of it :)
i love my makup- eye liner mascara lipgloss :) those three things make SO much difference :)
i used to be against makeup , like why would you spend money on something your going to wash off anyway , so basically your washing your money , but things you enjoy wasting your money on isnt a waste of money :) AND TBH . those three things arent major makeup. yes i wore foundation for a month recently  , BECAUSE clearisil burNT my fucking skin . im not even exaggeratiNG . i used it to be getting a fresh spot free smooth skin . but after a week it was basically SAND PAPER. so now and then i continue to use it because i paid £8 for that shiz not gonna waste it .

some people act like theyre addicted to makeup . SERIOUSLY ? addicted. others say they feel more secure , and i get their point when you have a daily ritual , you feel uneasy if you dont stick to it . so putting on makeup could be a ritual to some people :) 


foundation . oh foundation . it makes your skin shit unless you buy a like £50 one . but is it that hard for people to recognize THEIR skin color . no dont mistake that for the skin columnar you want . buy for YOU . gosh . sick of these people with their face one color and they neck being entirely different.  . SIGH


GOD bless makeup it can really help . but have you ( yes you ) seen those people who actually look WORSE with makeup . i personally think make up isnt the definition of beauty , but it is a beauty enhancer if used correctly .

annoying me at the moment #3

OMG *input name * just rappeeddd me


im sure ive mentioned this before , but recently rape is the new word. 
and i fucking hate it .
people actually do get raped , and then they are scarred for the rest of their life.
WHY WOULD YOU USE THE WORD RAPE  , unless it is necessary ? WHY ? 
why are these dumb girls throwing the word rape around like its a fucking metro . 
STOP. because im sure if you was to ACTUALLY get raped , you wold be pissed of too . i havent been raped , i dont know anyone who has. but i know how theyd feel about this . and the worst thing is , its not only gils who throw it around , boys too . some boy touched me . and all the other boys was like i heard you got raped by * input name * AHH
STOP THROWING AROUND THE WORD RAPE. YOU UNDEREDUCATED FISH MONGERS. 


blame


those people who blame everyone else before they can finally admit theyre wrong  . makes me angry . get out of your own ass, and maybe youll see reality . 


formspring 


im not going to moan about people saying things anonymously because thats the whole point to be honest , but saying shit that is FARRRRRR from the truth . no just no . you look like an idiot . 


thats about it to be honest :)

little or large- not comedy :)

ive said this so many times but it applies once AGEEN .  EVERYTHING in my life and i mean everything from food to boys to school EVERYTHING  . i love my life it has everything i need , and recently ive been overly happy . butive noticed once again that whatver i have is either not enough or too much . yeah im grateful that i have it :) becuse some dont have it at all . but its like i go from having it a full 100% which ten drops to like 15% , yeah i can cope with just 15 but would i really WANT too afterr being on 100 . GOSH. 
another thing is 100 , isnt even great , because recently i had alot of things on my plate , too much so instead of trying to work it out i just went into SHUT DOWN MODE. some people get on with life and ' make lemonade with the lemonss lifes threw at them ' , but im the sort of person who would squeeze lemonsin lifes eye orrr just dodge them . OH MY GARD . why didnt anyone think of that ..
DODGE THE LEMONS :) 
anyway as i was saying , shut down mode. things get too much and im just like i cant do this anymore and then deal with the consequences later on . 
i wouldnt call how i deal with things wrong , because thats ME . everyones different butttt not gonna lie , it is something i need to work on , because im gonna have bigger problems in my life than homework boyss family.


well yeah this was just one of those blogs that would benefit me more than you . 
so sorry if you didnt enjoy it .
but hey this is MY public diary , not yours :) 

guess whos back .

WELL YEAH before my mothers day blog . this blog was kind of in a coma . and the longest one yet . 3 weeks and no blogging . IM SORRY GUYS . actually no im not sorryyy .


wanna know why ?
well i didnt fdeel like me and was preoccupied most of the time with homework , birthdays , family etc. sometimes i did come on here to check the views and stuff but th honest truth is i couldnt be bothered :) 
but it hit  FOUR THOUSAND VIEWthankyou everyone , i never thought it would be this big . EVER . but yeah thanksss  even if you didnt enjoy it . WAIT if you didnt enjoy it ? WHY YOU ERE BITCH? CLICK THE 'X' . anyway back to you lovely people . - winkk -  im sorry its been so long


it sounds selfshish but this blog is MY diary for ME . MY thoughts . MY realease when i want a release or a wanna talk about something . you people can join me , but if i dont enjoy bloging at some paticular time , then youll have to deal with it . IM SORRY . its a cold worldd out ereee' . 
GET USEDD TO IT . and i have many blogs + so re read . you might notice something new .


another thing . a blog target ;)  no more swear words. well less . no point just going cold turkey because it NEVERRRRRRR works. 
but i was thinking and  swear wordsss wouldnt be swear words if people didnt react to them . but everyone makes such a big fuss. and thats how they become swear words hmm i who inveted them ? hmm who started HIV ? was it really a monkeyyy ? hmmm if only someone had all the answeres to my questionsss.


- sorry off topic .
basically im back to blogging :)
there might be breaks . short breaks long breaks . 
but im back BIIIIITCHES :) 

mothersday. sonia hay ♥

sorry guys . i know need to do the -  im back to blogging blog bla bla .
but mum comes first and that applies TO EVERYTHING .

now .. where do i start ?
i know  i havent been the best daughter all the time and i know ive made you want to kill me sometimes , or just leave and never come back  . but im sorry. and i have grown out of that phase , because you deserve so much better , your one of the most amazing people i know . and your everything i would want to be when im older .
- wow im already crying .

your beautiful inside and out . your funny . and so strong. youve been through so much throughout your life and dealed with everything life has thrown at you . i dont actually know how you do it ? your like some iron woman . well on the outside..

youve taught me so many life skills . youve encouraged me to be myself and dont let any ones opinions get to me . youve wiped my tears , and listened to all my problems no matter how minor they actually was . your always putting other peoples problems before your own , even strangers .youve hugged me, even at times i know youve wanted to slap me .even when i went through that devil child phase , you still showed me nothing but endless amounts of love .

your intelligent and you have such a good spirit, i truely hope i can be just a little bit like you when im older because you are truely amazing .- get 100 voice ;) , and perfect in every single way even when you joke and say im adopted haha. but thankyouu for carrying me for those long 9 months and putting up with me for 15 yearrs .

oh and how could i forget - YOUR CRAZY . i thought i was a bit weird. but your just off the scale . you say the funniest things , and make me smile EVERY SINGLE DAY .

SHOUTOUT TO DAD . - you and mum together is even more crazy . your like little children and i hope im as in love with my husbandd ,as you and mum are :)

basically
i love you mum and i would do anything for you and i know it doesnt always seem like it , but i do love you . dont ever forget that.
your amazing :)