perfectly imperfect.

ive got this slight thing bothering me .
NO ONE IS PERFECT.
for goodness sake .
im not even going to make this long .
we all know nohing perfect , so why do we expect our friendships and relationships to be? why do we change people to make them perfect ? who decides what is and isnt ' perfect' ?
ah the word perfect is actually annoying me .
the most p. thing to do , is just ACCEPT our flaw , thats what makes us who we are  , what makes us differnt from everyone else.
how boring would this world be if we was all the same ?
theres NO ONE else like you . maybe similar , but NO ONE exactly the same so just embrace it .

be yourself.

constructive criticism

OKAY OKAY today was actually a  goood day .
its sunnnnnnny and theres pancakkesssss & scored two rounderss :)
but then once again a small thing happens .
not gonna go into details - but basically ...
because im brave enough to say what everyone is thinking , im in the wrong and im mean ? the only reason your getting angry is because your too insecure to admit what im saying is true .  IS THAT MY FAULT ? no . MAN UP . and take my opinion .
how are you ever meant to grow as a person if you are unable to take constrictive criticism . believe me.. YOU WONT . i went through that stage ( kinda still am ISH ) where you would just automatically switch of if someone says something negative . and yeah its good to get negative energy away from you . but sometimes its just TOUGH LOVE  . there being tough because they love you , and there telling you negative things so you know what you can change into positive.
-  i amaze myself sometimes -
okay i think i should end on that BADMAN quote ; which i made myself .
another blog later LOVEES <3

there only telling you negative things so you know what you can change into positive.
'x

religion part 2

ages ago i made a blog called religion about how now im not afraid to say i dont have an religion.
but i didnt really say all i wanted to say .
nowadays .. EVERYDAY people are asking me about religion and it just always comes up in conversation . i even made a facebook status about it

' id rather have no religion.die and be surprised that Christianity is real than devote/waste all my life being a 'perfect' Christian just to find out there is nothing there.

Saturday at 21:46 ' 

and obviously i made the status so i agree with that . but 36 comments . my cousin saying that i will ' know the truth  one day ' WHAT IS THE TRUTH EXACTLY ? & another sguy trying to convert me into islam ?  i have already said i dont fucking believe in the stories. & another person calling me SINFUL ? well you know what i have to say to that . GET OF MYnonexsistentDICK . everyone is different , everyone has different beliefs i shouldn't be prosecuted because mine are DIFFERENT . dont manipulate me because im not a replica of yourself . if God loves us all , then he/she/it should love me anyway . who cares who the messenger is ? I GOT THE FUCKING MESSAGE . isnt that all that matters?

- yes i am swearing . but i really dont care . it frustrates me how people are always telling me how i SHOULD be and what not to be, i just want to be MYSELF  . isnt acting how you want me to act , FAKE ?

and to be honest , id rather have no religion then to have one and go against it everything it stands for.. i know so many people that say there are religious but yet they drink , smoke and do sexual things too . isnt that a contradiction ? and i know i wouldnt stick to the rules of any religion, so why pretend . also if i dont believe in something..what am i going to gain our of pretending . 
people are always encouraging me to be myself and not care what others think , yet when i do i still get complaints.religion is for some people and not for others .
if i die and find out there WAS  a jesus i will be pleasantly surprised , but i know im not going hell because im a GOOD PERSON - .

another thing why is there a heaven and hell , should there just be heaven , shouldn't god change people after they die . we have all gone through our lives so shouldn't we ALL be rewarded somehow .

ah that was a good ending up there ^ and i had to think of something else.
agnostic- believe theres a God up there , but just confused about all the different stories
anyway all i want to say is .
i am Deanne . S.  Hay , and just because i'm agnostic does not make me any less of a person . 

Jaide Spillhaus♥

today i woke up ; it was sunny , i was on time , checked my blog , new country to add to the list of views;  portugal :)
HIIIIIIII PORTUGUESE PERSON .
anyway , this morning my brother even gave me money .
so i was like yeah cool this is gonna be a good day.
but no it got ruined.
and not by ' HATERS' or annoying people . by the people i call my FRIENDS .yes you read that correct. my day got ruined by my friends. sometimes i think... do i even have any friends ? i talk and joke with alot of people, but when im out of highschool  i'm will only keep contact with  4 . maybe less.
are they even friends or just associates at this time in my life ?
i love my friends . obviously i would , i did CHOOSE them .but sometimes its the people that you love the most that can hurt you the most . you give them opportunity to push your buttons, and i gave them the' remote ' . so what should i really expect ?
anyway . i was angry with friends . went to a lesson . teacher put me in a worse mood..

then was meant to see a guy . but my friend wanted me to go with her , and yanno . chicks before dicks and all that . so i went with her told her EVERYTHING . why am i referring to her as her. her is JAIDE. she is the most amazing teenager  i know . she is going to be in my life forever. shes the one person i KNOW wil be at my wedding . everyone else  - BLAH maybe. she is a DEFINITE. we are so alike yet so different. we cant even remember how we met . we both just know we walked into eachothers life somehow and it went up from there. i dont know why ive made blogs for other people and not YOU. you mean the absolute most to me and id do anything for you ; ANYTHING . the way i have tears in my eyes whilst writing this ; never happened for anyone else. EVER . you never judge me and i love that about you . &  today you made me feel so much better ; i was gonna come home and probably have an attitude with parents . then it would escalate . but you actually calmed me down . just by listening . and you said the cutest thing today .
" deannne this is going to sound really corny but im always here for you and id do anything for you "
the feeling is definitely mutual .♥
we have had ups or downs . but our' arguments' have always been over silliness.
i would say DONT EVER CHANGE . but i know you wont and sometimes you may think im acting weird with you or being off with you . but im not . im probably being off with everyone .

BASICALLY.

i love you . 

girls. -sigh

okay i generally dont like girls , i think they are annoying hypocritical bitches there are a few who arent like that , and i mean a FEW.


we get away with so much. did you know that you could murder someone and get away with it because you was on your period , its happened before. i dotn even think she got community service, how stupid. i know period pains can be bad , but there not THAT bad. not so bad that someone could say something which resulted you in killing them . you know you wanted to kill them before, being on your period just seemed like a good excuse and it worked. FUCKING WALLAD.  that woman probably seduced the guy with her assets or satisfied the police officers needs , yes i mean sexual need because woman do that ALOT. they try to bribe men/boys , its so sad. you shouldn't have to use your body in that way to get something , e.g money , maybe you could just get an education or not do the bad thing in the first place . wouldn't that be easier than prostitution, giving head ETC.   dont you have any self respect or pride OR even dignity ?


AND ANOTHER THING I HATE ABOUT GIRLS.
them girls who act bitchy , know there bitchy but yet they DONT like being called a bitch . sorry love but all we are doing is stating the FUCKING OBVIOUS , so there is no need to be angry . its like fat people who dont like being called fat , or slags who dont like being called slags. WTF. just deal with it , if your getting angry you obviously know its true . DICKHEAD. 


another thing .
girls who play mind games.
we dont like it when boys do it to us  , so why do it to them .  why pretend you have a boyfriend etc. i cant think of any mind games at the moment but you KNOW what your doing and its fucking pathetic.


another thing about relationships- boys always get called dicks and get the blame but its not always their fault and to be honest i think we are dicks .  we can always say what out perfect guy would be like , and then when we get a fairly decent guy we try to change him into what WE want . isnt that horrible ? if a boy was to say i want a girl with big boobs and then tried to persuade you to get a boob job , they would be called a dickhead , sexist etc. but when we do it , it seems okay . NO . us girls are always talking about how boys and girls should be equal e.g jobs but then we think its okay for us to have different rules and standards . 


ALSO - i prefer boys because you could have an argument with a girl and it will go on for ages , the tension will ALWAYS be there , but with a boy , you shout , you make up , its done . sometimes you dont even makeup , but your still friends because the argument was over nonsense. 
and boys can take a joke  . i HATE that in girls , they love to say shit  and then say its a JOKE . and when you  respond with  a ' joke '  to them they get all emotional - ergh .


AND ANOTHER THING 
MAKEUP 
im starting to wear makeup , but it looks natural . some girls just go over the top . your going to SCHOOOOL .
all i wear at school is mascara eye liner foundation sometimes lipglosss if i find it before my vaseline .
but to wear foundation concealer bronzer lipgloss eyeliner eyesahdow mascara and then all these products in your hair . WHAT IS THE POINT . and especially to school . to people you see everyday :| no one special . 
its just pathetic.


i made this because this guy i know . me and him were having an argument about girls . and now i know he was right.  i wasnt goign to put his name in it but its his birthday .
HAPPY BIRTHDAY RODON & YOUR RIGHT .
GIRLS are pathetic.
-SIGH-