lonlieness

.	lonliness
	being completly alone, weather by choice or fate a feeling of complete dispair will smother the unfortunate beholder i pity the person who experiences lonliness yet we all do at some point or another ^ urban dictionary brav yes we all do it some point in another but lonlieness is inevitable . .. anyway . but i dont see how we can live in a world with like 15 billion people .  a million in london alone  1 thousand just in our area  yet i can tilll be lonley . acc i do see  how this is possible . everyone has their own lives , their own goals they want to achieve  there own problems , and yeah we have friends  family etc but  everyone is so busy doing THEM that they have no time to relax . they end up doing THEM alone. and yesterday for a bit i felt alone . there was people shouting in my face left right and center and i  was stood there standing my ground . and the worst thing is , i  turned around , loooked around the big crowd and i was noticing  how many claim to be my friend . but they just stood there watching . TAOME - who i only started to get along with , was the one who was  tryign to defend me COURTNEY- who i also only started to get along with   , was  the one who made me walk away . and yanno what upsetme the most , when i had walked away and  gone into a classroom , none of my friends followed me up and came  to comfort me . NONE . it was courtney . the girl i always have argueements with was doing more then my ' friends '  but the thing is we are born on our j'zzzzzzzzz we dieon our j'zzzzzz so why would i expect to be walkingg this life i lead and not be doing it on my j'z spain and tannned . we took this picture for jokes . but to be honest . that is the real SHIT right there . jack jones . by myself .  yeah i have ' friends'  but tbh the only real friend i have is death .  its not gonna lie to me  , it wont fool me . when it comes .. it comes ..  its not gonna do no bullshitting . like ' friends' and some of the ' family .  death is the only thing we know we're gonna get out of life , the rest we MAKE happen watch this space.